It’s interesting, the word breakdown, could mean a whole host of things. In my case it means going full on crazy manic which ended in me for some reason taking a massive overdose which led to a prolonged cardiac arrest, profound short term memory loss, and a section in to an acute psych ward. It… Read More Breakdown
Had my first nights this weekend. Was so scared, being the only f1 on surgery all night and with one other surgical person in the hospital who is two years ahead of me. I actually really enjoyed them. Lots of query emergencies that turned out not to be, one lady who I thought was being… Read More Nights
So this week was not an absolute joy, I get really awful pms and whilst a student it was easy to go home early and also didn’t really matter if I was off form for a few days each month, but now it really shows. Started on Wednesday, continued Thursday and Friday, just kept crying… Read More Tears and terror
..Of how not to hand your sick patients over at the end of your shift. First on-call on Thursday, was so quiet until 5.30ish when the day teams decided to all go home at the same time..my bleep started going off incessantly and I had no idea how to work it and see the numbers… Read More Just wanted to make you aware…
So the first week is done! Was on the ward for two days plus had some boring lectures and some emergency course which was a bit rubbish. So there are 30 of us starting, and 4 on my ward, and so far they seem so lush. We went on another social on Friday night and… Read More Have you worked here long?
So earlier this week I noticed a few things that are symptoms of me going a bit up, such as not feeling tired, less sleep, having lots of ideas that I thought were great, being distracted, socialising more, not being hungry, music playing in my head, this kind of excited and fidgety feeling inside me,… Read More Keeping a lid on it
So the Summer has been great…no exams, very little stress but also quite a lot of time to get realllllly scared about starting work. Lots of the things I’m scared about are such school girl fears that I wonder if I have really ever grown up! Not much, clearly. Still, I am better than I… Read More Fears on starting work
So I’m back where I grew up for a week or so and had a slight amount of school girl grief this weekend…friend from school invited me to a little get together they were having, then another friend from school found out I was going and told them to uninvite me… Turns out this friend… Read More Fair weather friends
Ah, the endless dreamings of a better place as a medical student, the constant mutterings that when we get there, we will be better than those who came before us. So I thought I’d just record a few things before I start work, on how I’d like to be, and see how achievable they are… Read More ‘When I’m a doctor, I’m going to…’
So after a long and less than great at times journey, I have finally finished medical school. It has been tough, but now I’m ready for the next chapter as a junior doctor. I start in less than two weeks on general surgery in a district general hospital where I did a few weeks of… Read More The journey so far
Secret Life of a Bipolar Doctor 